Week 7 - Day 1 - Not a good run

I got up and did my running program this morning but it wasn't the best. I'm meant to have a group crossfit session tonight but the gym has just run to say they are putting up their prices as of now and most of us can't afford what they are asking. So tonight if there are more than 7 of us then I have volunteered to go home.
My eating has been awesome and I'm actually really looking forward to weigh in on Wednesday.

Week 6 - Day 7 - I survived

I survived the Old Boilers Night and had so much fun. I had to wear slippers with penis on them all night which got many comments from others at the pub. The things we do!
I tried to eat sensibly while out and chose a Thai beef salad. I had a bout 4 glasses of white wine before I started on the spirits. I did have diet coke with the spirits but I know I blew my calories for the day. I've tried to be extremeley good today and will know by Wednesday what damage I did last night. I'm not panicking!

Week 6 - Day 6 - Old Boilers Night

I'm having my Old Boilers night tonight and I'm just a bit excited. I've got around 40 women meeting me at the pub for dinner and drinks. It could end up very messy! I don't drink much these days so I'll have to pace myself. I'm also panicking about the calorie intake. I've decided to drink white wine and top it up with soda water. This will hopefully make me drink slower and not as much.
I did super Saturday this morning with a spin class follwed by a pump class. I was drenched at the end of it but I only burned off 750 calories. What's with that? I'm finding that the further I go with this program, the harder it seems to be I have to work to burn off calories. Kinda makes sense but shit it's hard work.
Tomorrow is a rest day and probably a recovery day.

Week 6 - Day 5 - 15 days to go

Only 15 days to go until I get married. Woohoo!
Did a really lethargic run on the tready and the same at pump this morning. Just don't seem to have too much energy today. Might have something to do with not being able to sleep in the middle of the night so I got up and did a couple of hours of ironing before going back to bed. May as well be productive if I'm not sleeping. Crazy really but I hate laying in bed and not sleeping. I'm actually really tired now and can't really be bothered even working.
An easy night tonight as it is "Get you own tea" in our house tonight. I'm pulling out one of the meals I've had prepared and frozen in the freezer.
For super Saturday I'm doing spin followed by pump and then a small run. I always aim for at least 1000 caloires.
The past couple of days I've basically burned off the same amount of calories that I've eaten. Maybe that also has something to do with my tiredness!

Week 5 - Day 4 - I did it!

I ran for 20 minutes without stopping and covered 3.5km. I'm warpt. I've been doing my happy dance all day today. I never truely believed I could do it but I was determined that I would. It actually wasn't too bad either which now makes me think I can go further. I want to do 5km now. I'm so pumped.

Week 6 - Day 3 - Nice lose

I lost 1.4 this week which now brings my grand total to 8kg and 9.8% of me gone. I'm so stoked. It is so exciting to see the numbers coming down. I'm half way there now so it is full steam ahead.
I di my running program this morning which had me running for 8 minutes at a time. I made it and never thought I could run that long. I took a sneak peak at tomorrows program and freaked. I have to run for 20mins straight up. The negative voices went off in my head straight away. I'm trying really hard not to listen to them. I will give it a go and let you all know.
Tonight I have PT followed by tennis with my youngest daughter. I love palying tennis with her. We have so much fun and laugh heaps. I think we are the craziest tennis players to take to the courts. We have all these High 5 moves which crack us up. Don't know if any of the other players are too impressed.
My son starts his fianl Yr12 exams tomorrow.

Week 6 - Day 2 - A bit lethargic

I did the most amazing crossfit group session last night. It involved running, bear crawls, walking lunges, push ups, squats, kettle bell swings, toe touches, knees to elbows, one arm clean and press, burpees and then more running. This may sound simple but the number of reps were incredible. 400m runs with 25kg weights, 50 & 75 push ups, 100 squats, 50 toe touches, 50 burpees etc etc etc. I ate it all up. I loved it and didn't want it to finish. I was first finished so I was rewarded with another 400m run carrying an empty beer barrel. It was awesome.
Today I ran on the tready and then did pump but I was rally lethargic. I think last night might have taken a bit out of me. I actually really had to push myself to get out of bed and go to the gym. This has been the hardest day to get up and going but I just kept thinking, JFDI. What a powerful mantra.

Week 6 - Day 1 - Ran further than I needed

I was doing my running program this morning and was onto my 2nd lot of 5 minute running. I ran past a friend and yelled hi and at the same time I had a song change on the ipod. In amongst all this, I must have missed the cue to walk again so I kept on running. After a bit, I realised that 5 mins seemed to be taking forever so I checked the program and realised I had run for 6.5 mins. This is the longest I have run for like a million years. I was so happy.
My son got his P's today so all is good in my house.
Group Cross fit session tonight. Attempting the fish recipe tonight. I'm so not a fish eater or cooker. I'm a bit worried I'll hate it and then have to rely on my freezer for back up. At least I have a backup plan.

Week 5 - Day 7 - Rest day

I need it. A rest day and it was lovely. I had a chance to sit out in the sun and just relax. I've had a great week for exercise and eating and am really looking forward to my next weigh and measure.

Week 5 - Day 6 - Fighting with my body

My joints all seem to be aching. My knees, elbows and shoulders. I'm not giving into it.
I went to spin and then follwed up with pump. Only 825 calories burnt so when I got home I decided to run around the racecourse. This was a disaster. Everytime I started to run my stupid problem of needing to go to the toilet happened. I was actually talking to my self out loud and cursing my body. I ended up walking and trying to run and then walking again. At least I burnt off another 200 calories so I managed a 1000 calorie Super Saturday. I'm over my body giving up on me. I just want to be able to run. I'm not giving up but it is so frustrating. I've had a really good week of eating. I got a surprise email from Mish which has really made my day. She said she has been tracking my stats and sees that I've been averaging 1 kilo + loss each week and that it puts me in the top 10%. I'm so wrapt. I'm not doing this to compete with anyone else but it is nice to get recognition for my efforts by someone I totally admire.

Week 5 - Day 5 - moody family

Everything in my house is crap. My partner is being really moody, my 16 year old daughter is looking at me as if she wished I was dead and my 14 year old isn't much better. What is it with them all??? or is it me????
My partner suffers from depression and does have periods of moodiness. I actually went and counted his meds this morning because I thought that perhaps he wasn't taking them. He is! When he is like this he becomes manic about having a clean and tidy house. Our house is kept spotless at the best of times but he is manic. It is very hard to live with this and he is extremely hard on my children when he's like this. He also has a great knack of making me feel guilty about doing things without him or going out without him. I have always tried to do all my activities that are away from home (like the gym), before anyone gets up in the house. I've tried to learn that he shouldn't make me fell guilty and I have to keep things in perspective in my head. I've only been out 1 night this week and that was for a Relay for life meeting followed by tennis with my youngest. 1 night only but I know he has it in his head that I'm never home.
He also has a knack of making me feel guilty about time I spend with my children. He just doesn't get the parent thing totally. He has an adopted daughter and they don't have the greatest relationship. I don't think he has ever really been a "real" father to her. And I don't think he gets the bond that a mother and her children have. He had such a bad childhood and I think he missed out on a lot of relationship stuff and doesn't know what it is all about, especially with parents and children. He is only like this when his depression is acute but it is very hard to deal with. It makes me feel like I'm in an impossible position and that I can't be stretched among everyone far enough.
So I went to the gym this morning and ran on the tready for 20 mins and then did a pump class. this was all before anyone was awake in my house. I was going to a boxing class tonight but I've cancelled because I don't want to be made to feel guilty and I don't want to have to put up with his shitty mood if I go.
Time to take control and sit him down for a talk about how he makes me feel when he is like this and the effect it has on the entire household.
Next in line will be the 16 year old. She needs to learn about respect and treating people nicely. Obviously something crappy is going on in her life so she takes it out on me. She is such a deep child and hard to get to the bottom of things with her but I can't take this attitude and rudeness anymore.

Week 5 - Day 4 - Breast cancer week

How ironic that every year they have breast cancer awareness week in October and this is the week that my mother died from cancer. It coincides every year. She initially started with breast cancer and then had an ongoing 4 year battle until she died from lung cancer. She was only 46 years of age and I had just turned 14 years old. This was 31 years ago. I kind of think that if she had of been alive today with all the improvements in treatments that perhaps she would have survived.
She was an amazing woman. 4 days before she died I turned 14 and she organised a birthday party for me with 10 friends. She did everything for her family. She was also very community orientated and involved in Girl Guides, meals on wheels, local theatre group etc.
So what have I learned about her and me and cancer and why she died? I believe that things happen in life for a reason and sometimes that is hard to find the reason. I do know that because she lived the life she did and instilled such great values into her children that I am a better person for being her daughter. I am a strong person and live for my children. I believe that if she fought so hard to stay here that I can honour that by being the best person I can be and to pass this on to my children.
Afte she died, I lived at home with my Dad. My 2 older sisters had left home already. I became my dad's escort to many functions. He is also very community minded and involved in groups and committees. I probably went to many community events and dinners that not many teenage girls would attend. This has opened many doors for me in later life as it taught me how to act appropriately and I met some very influentual people. I grew up very quickly.
I have also learned not to take life for granted. It is a gift to us all and we need to use it the max. So I have my 2 yearly mammogram done, pap smear and all the rest. I'm the chairperson for our local Realy for Life which is such a great event and cause.
So this is probably one of the main reasons I'm doing 12wbt. I want to be healthy and fit and a role model for my 3 kids. This may seem morbid.......... I do believe one day I will get cancer in some way shape or form. So I need to be the fitest and healthiest I can possibly be to fight this terrible disease.
I love my Mum to the moon and back and think of her every single day.
So if you are reading this blog, please do me the biggest favour................. Please think about all the wonderful things your mum has done for you and probably is still doing for you and then give her the biggest hug and tell her you love her to the moon and back.

Week 5 - Day 3 - Surprises

I started the day with a pleasant surprise on a 1kg loss. I was stoked as I had been away in Melbourne, had 3 birthdays in our house, eaten out heaps and I still managed to lose. Yahoo.
I decided today that I relly like running. I'm still crap at it but I'm perservering and increasing the times I run and shortening the times I walk. I actually had a smile on my face this morning while I was running.
The best news for today is that my son has got an interview for Physiotherapy at Monash for next year. This is the course he has his heart set on. It doesn't mean he has got into it but it is a first step into getting into it. The interview is 30th Nov after all his exams. I'm so excited for him and so proud of him.

Week 5 - Day 2 - Another birthday

Today is my baby's 14th birthday. I got up early and headed to the gym for a run on the tready and a pump class. On the way home I went via Maccas to pick up breaky for the children as a birthday treat. I didn't have a bite of anything and actually really didn't feel like I missed out on anything.
Still haven't got my emails sorted which is a pain in the bum.
Looking forward to weigh in tomorrow even though I've done a bit less training this week and had last weekend away with quite a bit of alcohol. I'll be happy with any small loss.

Week 5 - Day 1 - Another bad day

My exercise is good. My nutrition is good but my mood is terrible. I don't know what is wrong with me.
After a bad day yesterday in regards to my son's 18th Birthday dinner, I decided action was required. I text my ex and told him exactly what I thought about not including me and my family in my son's 18th. He reponded with "I just didn't think about it." What an idiot. To cut a long story short, myslef and 7 of my famly are now going out for dinner iwth my son for his 18th. Yahoo!
Sometime over the weekend Dodo who is my internet provider did an upgrade of their email system. This should be fabulous but the only thing is, I've lost all my contacts and a folder I called "Must Keep Stuff." This is the folder I store all our passwords, my sons Yr12 VTAC info, concert tickets, air tickets etc etc etc. Well get this, it has vanished as well. I rang Dodo today only to be told that they cannot retrieve any of this information and that they will not talk to me any further about this email account as I'm not the account holder. The account is in my ex husbands name beacuse Dodo will not change it to mine even after numerous attempts. My flight details to Sydney was stored in this folder. Tickets to the Australian Open which are xmas presents for my children are stored in this folder. I just wanted to cry.
I have felt moody all day and so out of control. This is not me and I'm usually very under control even with my moods. I'm not sure why this is all happening and the moment but I sure as hell don't like it. I just want to go to bed and cry and hide away fromm the world.
Oh well, tomorrow is another day and it's my youngest's 14th birthday so I'll put on a happy face.

Week 4 - Day 7 - I'm cross

I'm completely shattered. While I was away having such a lovely weekend with my partner, my son rings to see if I had organised anything for his 18th birthday. I hadn't which is very unlike me but I still had time when I got home. It turns out his father wanted to organise a dinner for him so I let him do that. I'm the one who normally does all the organising. I was a bit peeved with myself for being so absorbed in my own world of wedding and 12wbt that I hadn't really thought about my son.
Now the really crappy part. His dad organised the dinner and me and my partner have not been invited. Nor has any of my family. This has really made me angry because whenever I organise anything for my children I alwyas include my ex and his family. Not once have not included them. He is my son. He lives with me. He calls me Mumma. I so need to be there to celebrate his 18th birthday. I know he will wake up at home and I will give him his awesome present but I need and want to be there tonight to share the whole thing with him. I'm probably being a real bitch here but I don't comprehend why I'm not included. I haven't told my parents yet either as they would normally be invited too. It's my fault for being so self absorbed.
The other thing making me so cross is that I haven't doen my mini milestone. I had grand plans of doing the big 15km beach walk. My partner was not thrilled with this plan as the seas around here have been huge and the walk is very isolated. He really didn't want me doing it on my own. I gave in. For the first time since I've started this journey I just gave in. I didn't even try and justify even to myself.

Week 4 - Day 6 - no training

WOW is all I can say about my night away with my husband to be. We stayed at the Crown Metropol, had dinner on the Tramcar Restaurant and breakfast at Gordon Ramsey's restaurant. I tried to eat as sensibily as I could but I drank way too much. It was such a fun night that I didn't want to spoil it by thinking about calories and I figure if I only do it every now and again it won't be too bad. I weighed myself before I went to Melbourne and I'll weigh myself in the morning and then assess the damage. The tramcar was 5 courses. I had pate and capsicum dip, Kangaroo fillets, Macadamian crusted chicken, cheese platter and Chocolate dome mousse with lots of champagne, red wine and tia maria.
I travelled home from Melbourne today so I couldn't do my mini milestone but I plan on doing it tomorrow. I was going to do a 15 km walk along the beach front but the weather is so bad here and the sea is very rough and high so that is out of the question. My partner has offered to drive me out the road for 15km and make me walk home. I think that's a great plan.

Week 4 - Day 5 melbourne

I'm in Melbourne and staying at Crown Metropol which is really flash. We got drenched walking onto Bourke street but the good news is ............. I got a dress. I've compromised because I have realized I'm just too fussy and critical of my body. The dress I tried on last week & I picked it out again today so it must be the one. Off on the tramcar restaurant tonight. I've eaten very little all day as it is 5 courses plus unlimited alcohol. I'm absolutely starving and can't wait for tonight

Week 4 - Day 4 - It's my birthday and I'll run if I want to

What a way to start the day..........  a 30 minute run/walk................. such a beautiful morning.
I'm 45 years old today and loving life. I've celebrated at morning tea, lunch with a girlfriend and family dinner tonight and I've managed to stay under my 1200 calories. It was close but with wise decision and a bit of planning it is actually possible to do it.
I'm off to boxing tonight. I'm not even prepared to give that up just because it's my birthday. I love it too much anyway.
Off to Melbourne tomorrow and going on the Tramcar restaurant for dinner. This will blow the calories as it is a 5 course set menu with unlimited alcohol. I'm going to try and eat wisely and not panic about the calories. I can try and burn them off with thte rest of the weekend and my mini milestone of walking along our coast line for 15kms. Mainly on soft sand so that will be a killer

Week 4 - Day 3 - Good results

Weigh in day and the results are good. I'm down another 1.4Kg bringing my 4 week total to 5.6Kg. My goal was 4Kg so I've smashed that.
The fitness test results are in and I imporved in areas except situps. I'm still at level 3 but I'm cool with that. I did 48 Push ups, 1min 19 for Wall Squat, I'm very flexible so my sit and reach was 20.5cm and my 1km run was 8:08. I'm really disappointed with the run results because I've been really trying to improve in this area. I did cut off 30 seconds but i was really trying for under 8 minutes this time. Oh well, I'll just have to keep practising and keep on with my running program and wait and see in the next 4 weeks. The only problem with the running is that my 1 month goal was to run 1/2 lap of the racecourse without stopping and I'm so scared I might not be able to do it. I'm going to try at the weekend and I'm really determined I can do it even if it kills me.
I'm doing all my body measurements on Friday at the gym as they have been tracking me and I get my PT to do them for consistency. Looking forward to it big time!

Week 4 - Day 2 - Down day

I am feeling completely flat and extremely tired today. I went to the gym this morning and ran on the tready but instead of just running I walked too as I was just not right. I then went to pump but only did lighter weights. It's not that I;m not motivated it is just that my body is telling me it's tired today.
I also just feel flat emotionally. I'm not my usual bubbly self but don't seem able to break out of this. I think an early night could be on the cards.
The other strange thing that is happening today is I keep wanting all the bad foods. This is really the first time I've wanted food other than what I've organised for the day. I walked past a take takeaway shop at lunch time and was practically drooling at the smells. I actually wasn't hungry as I'd not long eaten but i still really wanted to go in and eat. I kept walking so that was a good thing.
I hope this down mood passes really quickly. Maybe after weigh in tomorrow I'll feel differently.

Week 4 - Day 1 - Still running

I am so pleased with myself for sticking to my running program. It is the most running i have ever done in my life. My 1 month goal of running 1/2 lap of my local racecourse is looking good. I'm going to try it out this week. I've already passed my weight goal of 4Kg so all is good.
I had my first compliment today at work about how much weight I've lost. Boy that makes you feel good and makes the effort all the more rewarding.
I have a cross fit session tonight which is always a big calorie burner and then back to pump in the morning.
So looking forward to pizza tonight.

Week 3 - Day 7 - Body image

I think I have issues with body image. I went shopping yersterday for a dress for my wedding. I tried on about 6 and didn't like any due to my body. They were either too tight, made my bum look big, made my waist seem huge and on and on and on. My children liked a couple of them and said they looked great and I usually trust them but I just couldn't see it this time. I don't think my body is hideous but that is how I felt in these dresses. So the outcome.......... I didn't get a dress.
The good part was that I was well prepared with food and felt fantastic about this.
I didn't get to do Super Saturday yesterday so I sort of made up for it today. I ran on the tready for 16 1/2 minutes without stopping then did a pump class with much heavier weights than I usually do. The result was 660 calories gone. Not quite Super Saturday standard but I was happy with that.
I have spent the evening getting prepared for this week. I've made lunch for the next couple of days and got part of tomoorow evenings meal done.
Looking forward to Week 4

Week 3 - Day 6 - A day shopping

No Super Saturday for me today. I'm off to Melbourne to buy a dress for my wedding. It takes us 3 hours to get there, shop all day & 3 hours home. Absolutely no time for exercise today. I think it's a good excuse though. I'm going. To make up for it tomorrow so all is good. I was worried about food today so I've packed a salad fir lunch & a banana for a snack. Can't believe how much I can fit into my handbag. So hopefully in my next blog I'll have a new dress. So excited!

Week 3 - day 5 - just an ordinary day

At the gym by 5:30. 20 chinups on the assisted machine, 20 mins on the tready & a pump class. 550 calories gone. I have really found that by doing a little bit of cardio before pump makes me burn so many more calories. Worked all day then went straight to Relay for Life registration night. Got home about 8:30 ate tea and went to bed. Not quite sure when and where I'm supposed to fit my family in.

Week 3 - Day 4 - Running = Poo

WARNING WARNING WARNING - Read at your own peril............ Bodily functions discussed
I hate how when I'm running I feel like I need to go to the lou for No.2's. It is shitting me off.......literally.
I don't have the urge before I start running but once I get into it I feel like I have to go. What is that all about! It is not much fun trying to run when you feel like your going to lose control. It is stressing me because I don't know if it is normal or if it is just my body not coping with running. It is so not going to beat me........ I am going to conquer this running thing but it is bloody annoying and making it very hard.
I've just completed 2 weeks of my running program and had a sneak peek at next weeks and this scare the hell out of me. The negative talks starts in my head because the time to run has increased so much more than I expected. I have to stop this negative stuff but it is really hard when I've been scared of running most of my life. I am determined though and I will conquer this fear. Nothing like staring it straight in the face.
The other crap thing that is going on is that I'm just sooooooooo busy at the moment. Everything seems to be happening at once. My son is about to turn 18 and finish year 12, I'm about to get married, my parents are relying on me to help sell my Nan's house, I've got Relay for life stuff happening and full time work. I just feel like I can't stretch any further. I actually apologised to my partner last night for being so busy. I just feel a bit over whelmed at the moment. This is not like me so I don't know how to deal with it. I'm not budging on Michelle's program as this has my priority because I want this so badly.
I think I'm just having a bad day and tomorrow the sun will come up and I'll be okay again.
I did my running progam this morning beofre everyone got up and I have boxing tonight with my partner which always helps relieve the tensions. I punch them out. haha.
I booked my flights and motel for Sydney today. Look out I'm going to train with Mish. Woohoo

Week 3 - day 3 - Not afraid of the scales

Why am I so scared to weigh in each week??? I've done the hard work & eaten so well. The guilty side of me kicks in. I shouldn't have eaten that tiny bit of bbq chicken or I didn't do heavy weights at pump.
Anyway, I had another loss. 1.4kg to be exact & I'm so stoked. I had really done the hard work so that is reward.
I forgot my lunch today but I managed to improvise & won't go over my calories.
My youngest joined me this morning for a run and we play tennis tonight together. I love all this family togetherness.
My nearly 18 year old son bought a car last night so it is all happening in my house.

Week 3 - Day 2 - Loving the food

I have to say how impressed I am with the food and how easy the recipes are. I love cooking and trying out new recipes so I'm in my element. Even my family are impressed with most of the food I'm serving them. My daughters have loved taking the same lunches as me to school each day.
Another thing that is happening is that my family seem to be more active. Another plus from the program. My children want to come running with me in the morning. (they say that now, not sure what the response will be when I wake them at 5:30).
The other good news is.......... I survived the mad day yesterday and did an awesome workout at PT last night and didn't want to stop even when the session was over. I think I'm becoming addicted to exercise.... OMG

Week 3 - Day 1 - A busy time ahead

I managed to do C25K this morning even though it was drizzling rain. I only just made it back to the garage when a rally heavy down pour happened. Someone was looking after me.
I've got the most ridiculous evening planned and thank god for my partner to help. I finish work at 5:00 and race home to collect the toungest for her tennis lesson at 5:30. Head home and prepare dinner for everyone beofre picking up the youngest at 6:30. I've got a PT at 7 till 8. The middle child has to be picked up from work at 7ish. The middle child then has basketball at 8:20 and the oldest child needs to be picked up from work at 8:30. Then it's back to basketball to collect the middle child around 9:15. Then I'm going home to bed to crash.
I'm not quite sure when I'm supposed to eat and get organised for tomorrows food but I'll see how I go.

Week 2 - Day 7 Relaxing

I have just spent the day with my partner and no kids. We have done odd jobs around the place and basically just chilled out and relaxed. Once again the sun has been shining so I did get some time to soak some up.
My right knee is sore but I'm not telling anyone because it will just give them an excuse to tell me I'm doind too much!
I cooked the Thai fish cakes tonight and they were a hit. I'm not big on fish myself and I don't think I've ever cooked using fish before so I was greatly suprised that they were easy and tasted goo too.

Week 2 - Day 6 - not quite Super Saturday

I nearly got there. I knew I was going to be pushed for time this morning to fully complete my Super Saturday. I did spin then did my 1/2 hour C25K and had intentions of running up and down the Whale stairs. These are about 100 stairs from a whale viewing platform down to the beach. When I got there I couldn't believe how many people were there. There aren't even any whales at this time of the year. I wasn't going up and down the stairs in front of everyone like a royal dick in front of them all so I walked back to the gym and practices chin ups on athe assisted chin up machine. I only burnt off 800 calories so I was a bit peeved. I've been aiming for at least 1000 cals on a Saturday morning.
The reason I was pushed for time is that I'm on the local Relay for Life committee and we were having a Blitz up the main street to encourage people to participate. So I had to forgo by full Super Saturday but it was for an extremely good cause and one I'm proud to be a part of.
I spent the rest of the day soaking up some sunshine. It has been a rare event lately to see sunshine.

Week 2 - Day 5 - Start & Finish

I started the day with 20 mins on the treadmill and then a pump class and finished off the day with a boxing session. Just over 1000 calories gone for the day. I'm happy with that.
I had a conversation with my step mum.
SM "You look tired"
ME " I am"
SM " What have you been doing"
ME "Working out 6 days a week and eating really well"
SM "That's too much. You must stop"
I look at hr in amazement as she is in her 70's, very obese and can hardly move. (well she chooses not to move)
I don't want to end up like that. My mum died just after my 14th birthday and now that I'm nealry 45, overweight with high blood pressure it's time to take control and live a long and healthy life. I want to be here to see my children grow into adults and start families of their own. I would give anything to have had my mother stay healthy and be here still now.
Thanks Mish for helping me to change my lifestyle, my eating, my exercise patterns